I am screaming
in to my own ears
because I am afraid to listen
and all I hear is silence
I keep my hands busy
Because sometimes
I have no clue what they could do
It says you are my last thought
When I fall asleep
And my first one
When I awaken
But that’s not true
You are not
I have thousands of first thoughts
How I wish it was only you

Thanks all
For telling me warm words
And for your appreciation
But honestly
That doesn’t take away my emptiness
For a moment, perhaps
Or even a day
But that’s not enough, I guess
It is not enough
there is never ever enough
For me

But one day
I wanna say
I love you
And mean it.


(ju, am 10.02.)