AT LEAST WE TRIED DIDN'T WE

could please
someone explain
the inexplicable to me?
is there anyone
who can prove
me wrong
that it was not in vain
the pain
it brings
to fail?
because the more i think
my hope sinks
i am looking for links
and explanations
between the things
that help me bear
to be aware
of myself and my imperfect
love

here we go again
i took it in my mouth
this word
i let it out of my mouth
this word
i let it into my heart
this word
i couldn't make it
more than a word
in my world
this word

(ju)