sometimes

this gift you gave me

weighs too heavy in my hands

and

there is just too much

to fill my void

 

they were supposed to meet at 7.30

instead

she sat

down there

and the room

was empty

 

to dwell in

the emptiness of his loss to

freedom or sadness

to something or nothing

 

every bright moment has an evil twin

every sparkle finds his

abyss

to drown in

 

Again she seals the innermost

at least just as comatose

within

 

and she wonders

if she needs to remain

in the waiting

at all cost

to welcome the crash

like a long expected friend

 

and he said

he couldn’t leave her

like this

so he was there

without hesitation

and she could hardly take it

 

and how many times

will she have to start over

only this time with pieces that

she doesn’t want to pick up anymore

 

every bright moment has an evil twin

every sparkle finds his

abyss

to drown in

 

Again she seals the innermost

at least just as comatose

within

 

and she wonders

if she needs to remain

in the waiting

at all cost

to welcome the crash

like a long expected friend